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2012-01-30T18:14:00.004+08:00

Happy cny everyone =) let pictures do the talking ok!

huat ar everyone :D

2012-01-13T01:19:00.004+08:00

TUHHDAEEE was pretty dope!
Got a chance to crash at gigi's and leon's work place! AT SNOWCITY! ;)
So like we managed to enter in the evening. With just whatever we're wearing..
GIGI WAS IN SHORT SHORTSSSS HOLY MAMAMA.

was freeeeeeezinggggg colllllld!

and all the "snow" went into my jeans, into my boxers. MY ASS WAS FREAKING COLD.

igloo!

hereeee weee goooo ;)

the coldehs!

hahahahaha was really fun and exciting. my hands were sooo numbbb!!!
went to imm for a quick dinner then we played catching at the playground gosh. HAH
can't believe im still playing catching at the age of 18. But it's okay, leon's 20. WORST?
HAHAHAHAHAAH had a great day. hopefully you guys as well. nights :)

2012-01-08T17:48:00.004+08:00

I'M FREAKIN LEGAL!
Celebrated my 18th birthday together with my css buddies and dasmond friends at zirca/rebel!
So i could only enter at like 12am because we met on the 7th night! Mmm
Went into the club at 12.01pm and the bouncer kinda recognizes me and said,
"wah just past 1 minute you club already ah! happy birthday ah!" hahaha lmao!

so everyone was like, SHAWN FINISH THIS BOTTLE BEFORE ENTERING LA 18TH LEH.
And... this stupid beer was warm. because justin brought it from his home and it's totally not cold.
I drank half of it.. still feeling fine. hahaha

and neat barcari. damn gross omg hahaha

keely and zijieee :)

mavis and the super duper hyper jo!

Junjie haojie zhongming and joanna! :)

loves :)

so everyone was like dancing at zirca and rebel's dancefloor was pathetic. EMPTY.
All the songs are pretty familiar so everyone was like jumping!
and yeah.. after all the jumping and drinking... i puked. HAHAHAHA Part 1.
and i puked again in the cab. gosh i was totally sober. not drunk. but just too bloated!
hahahahaha felt like a fool. But was all good. great experience. my virgin trip to club!

and also, thankyou guys for all the wishes on twitter facebook! my twitter mention doesnt load anymore because of all the coming tweets! hahaha but still thanks guys for the wishes!
I had a great time. and not forgetting my css babies/dasmonds friend for their time :)
muah :)

2012-01-01T20:47:00.007+08:00

HAPPPPY NEWWW YEARRRR GUYSSSSSSS! It's 2012! :)
Whats my new year resolutions? Mmmm actually i really wanna grow taller.
HAHA and also to grow alittle bigger in size because it sucks to be so small size!
And most importantly, everything to go smoothly and be happy throughout this year. :)

Last night, the countdown event at boonlay was dope! had a great evening with everyone!
photo credits to Leon and gigi. :)

after the event we went to gigi's condominium to CRASHHH.
but we head to jp's ntuc and grab some stuff to munch on. And pizzas :)
Gigi's place is such a good place for gathering muhahaha ;)
She was like "u all can eat anything you want, but make sure you wash everything cos im lazy."
HAHAHA We bought a packet of sausage, boiled it, and wanted to bring to to the poolside.
But we ate everything even before we left the house. LOL Hahahah!

here's our pizzas! :)

gigi's doll inside the beehoon pot ;)

went to the pool side. the weather was perfect for such gathering!

NOM NOM :)

the rest didn't bring extra clothes so they couldn't play water so... i pushed them.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA evil chao lei long. HAHA

all the KENA PUSH face.

sliding onto the slide that doesnt work...

and we went underwater! :)

hahaha @ my eyes!

hahahaha unglam max!

the night was extremely great! went on to henderson wave bridge after that.
quite a few drunktards lying around. was funny! hahaha
only reached home at 8am in the morning! was so tireddddddddddddd!
itz was a great start to 2012 spending time with fel gigi and jo! :)
more to come :D

2011-12-27T01:14:00.003+08:00

i shall do this post before 2011 ends.. :)
2011 is one of the best year for me! simply because i gained so much this year.
thankfully i gain knowledge instead of weight... ;) hahaha ok lol

mmmmm how should i start saying this. hmmmm
coming up with an album is basically one of the craziest thing this year.
working with dasmond and gang is really fun! met quite a few good friends as well!
dage taught me so much this year.. really thankful for it :)
being able to sing the chinese version of the NEA winning entry was also great!
quite a number of gigs was also hellyeah awesome for me! was really good!
I also changed the type of music i use to listen to. the haley obsession this year.
and filming stranded for 4 months... everything is so good.

i'm kinda lazy to thank everyone one by one like how i used to, so imma keep it simple.
thank you to those who've always been by my side..... :)
family . cousins . geraldine . csspeeps . gigifeliciajo . stranded peeps . dasmond n gang!
and the rest of my friends who're equally important, also not forgetting all the encouraging words i get from people on twitter and facebook. y'all played a big role as well. thank u guys.

heres the latest pic of me if y'all miss me.. hahahaha
mmmmm yes i'm having dark red hair. ;)

thank you guys for making 2011 so amazing for me. and i hope i played an important part in your 2011 life as well... see you guys next year!
but you guys can still see me in 2011 @ boonlay this year! haha will be performing for countdown!
see you guys there at boonlay countdown! muahhhhhhh bye<3

2011-12-23T02:48:00.001+08:00

There are times when you don't feel good yet you simply can't pin down what you don't feel good about. There are tons of things that came to mind that worries me.
I tried to let it all go and put it all aside and just focus on the present but it's so much easier said than done and I'm making the effort to. And honestly, when all else fails, it's always yourself to be blame.

When you gain some, you lose some.
There's no one position where you could keep gaining. No matter how talented you can be.
Therefore, there's nothing really to regret. I may have lost a certain part of the past that I've been so used to.
That I've been so comfortable with. That I've come to love so much.
It's quite disheartening when I think about it. Yet, everyone needs to move on.
And moving on is something that I have to look at.
It's sad to just witness by the sideline. But I'm fortunate enough to be able to gain something in return as well.

It's killing me to know that I wouldn't get anything out of this.
But I can't help it. When it comes, it comes. And as much as I hate it when it comes.
But these are those little memories that will be carried with me throughout my entire life.
Hoping for the best. Keeping my faith up......

Finally, pulling both sides of my lips.
And smile.... :)

2011-12-12T23:06:00.001+08:00

SEE YOU GUYS THERE (:

2011-12-11T20:34:00.006+08:00

Howdy y'alllll :)
haven't been blogging but i know some of you still read this space really often.
Mmmm and yes! thank you nuffnang for the $50 that came in for the 2nd time!
Thank you guys for visiting this dead site even tho i haven't been posting!
muahahaha not really dead a dead site but i'd call it a quarter alive. LOL
okayyyy right now.... it's December already! this year is hecka fast! Extremely fast.
2012 is coming in like no timeeee holy moly marconi~ Ahhh this is crazy!
This year has been a good one. All the emotions have made sense..
and... i'm growing up. woah~ now that's scary.

A new year is approaching.
For those who lives by regret (i do sometimes lol), this is the time to 'move on'.
Or 'pile on'.

Enjoy the last few days of 2011 and also Christmas peepo! :)

p/s : i will be performing for countdown 2012 event at boonlay this year. read my page for updates yea :) http://facebook.com/shawntxz

2011-11-13T01:57:00.003+08:00

Singapore hit awards last night! Was a good experience i must say... :)
mmmMm was a little out of place because it wasn't like with all the mediacorp peeps,
running around and playing, mostly were overseas celebs so i'm kinda awkward.
hahahaha but all's good! enjoyed myself!

waiting for the show to start @ the holding room:)
yes gotta thank comb for making my hair for the night!!!!!! xie xie ni comb soo!

chong qing! hahaha pretty sad that i didn't get to take a picture with him in his aunty lucy dress.
he looked stunning i swear! hahaha his heels was boomz.

sat with carrie & diya! yes, cha ban sheng!
i went to my seat before they came.. and after they arrived, carrie didn't talk to me AT ALL.
so i was like.. mmMM maybe she's just not used to the environment yet. Okay so i kept quiet.
Then she went to ask diya, Errr... who's that guy sitting beside me ah? Then diya went.. SHAWN LA!
Omg we burst out laughing! hahaha carrie said that i don't look like myself anymore!mm
do i? hahahaha maybe with my braces and my grown up attire. ;)

aunty lucy!!!!!!! isn't she/he gorgeous?!?!?!?! ISNT (S)HE?!?!?!?!
hahaha he's so good! and this is stef sun receiving her award! looking good!

best female singer!!!!! :)

it was a really good night. alto i didn't get the most popular new comer award, i still feel so blessed!
all the encouraging tweets just kept coming in and it's really nice to see such messages :)
Gotta thank 933 for the nomination and the invitation. first time in my life! :)
Was actually very prepared that nee an dong is gonna win because he's too good! haahaha
Yup and he did! Disappointed? Actually i'm more afraid of making others feel disappointed.
I'm not disappointed! I'm glad that i could even be nominated. Hopefully there's next time.:)
I'm not into "it's okay you're still young." Hahaha but it's gonna be a long way for me.
i reckon i'll be somewhere! :)

But still gotta thank Dasmond and gang for bringing me here. Haojie!!!
They played a big part in my entire album. Without them i won't even get nominated.
thank u guys :')
thank you to those who've believed in me. and also trying to trend me on twitter! haha
thank you guys so much. xie xie ni men.
okay i can't thank enough. count the number of THANKS i have in this post? HAHA
mmmmmm;)

till then. :)

2011-11-03T00:43:00.007+08:00

Booyah guys! I'm back to blog after... A month! (Is it a month already? Hahaha)
So right... What have I been doing recently! MmmmMmmMmm... Having fun?
Just officially finished filming stranded that is currently shown every sunday11am!
I'm missing all the casts and crew already :( tis is so saddddd :(

So yup! 20oct! Best buddy haojie's 21st birthday!!!!!!
Everyone went to Dasmond house to celebrate! Hohohoho was crazily fun.
I just had to drop dead in the mahjong room right beside sam. *face palm*

:D

And yes!!!! HALLOWEEEEEENNNN!
I went to USS twice because we got like 36 sponsored tickets!
Went with mah bros for the first day and my family for the second day! Gigi came with me!
So Gigi was really freaked out by all the scary look zombies!! HahHa
They weren't even scary!!!! LOL but we took picture with almost every zombie! Hehehe
Hers our fav pic! :)

TADA~

and also huixian's 19th birthday!!!!!!! hehehe
we actually surprised her 12midnight at her place and then we booked a hotel room for her the next day!
as usual, for such hotel/chalet event, me and keely are always the earliest. Dont ask why. AHAHA
so we went to shop around and decided to buy pink hair spray for the sake of buying. LOL
Tada here's what happen!!!! hahaha

eddie and june. loves love HEHEHE

and also keely wee! it's been awhile since y'alll saw her right!
mmm.. she's still as pretty as ever la. thats all. HAHAHAHA

and 2 days back! went to the recording for channel8 foodie dash game show!
hahahaha was really funny because this episode is on project/campus superstars and superband!
my partner is aijia!!! HAHA gosh that coincidence! and we're like the youngest team!

so we had to answer some food/health related question and we're totally GUESSING.
like.. go with the feel. HAHA we just anyhow only!

sam, lingyi & leeteng! :d

so... y'all wanna know if me and aijia won? ^^
Tune in to foodie dash starting 6th november! :D i dont know which week we'll be appearing!
will update on my twitter once i get the info!!!!!

hopfully there are still some readers here! hahaahaha been missing for quite awhile!
AND YES... MY BRACES~~~~~~~~~
it's hellyeah painful to the extreme core. i just had to extract 4 tooth and immediately putting the braces.
it's crazy yes, but i just need to get used to it because i had to sing.
but in the end i still had to cancel off the event because i can't even talk properly. HAHAHA
was so painful :((((( but right now it's getting better. but i still can't eat :(
saddddd. can't wait to get use to it! and guys please get use to my braces too! HAHA
will be with me for like 1 and a half year! mmmMmmm guess whats next?

singapore hit awards.:)

will update! :D
miss me!!!!!! :D

2011-10-13T15:01:00.002+08:00

Went roller blading last night with dasmond, haojie & junjie!
And it was the first time i actually roller blade in my entire life hahaha.
It wasnt as bad as i thought! Hehe i'm such a fast learner i managed to skate pretty far!
Although i fell 6 times on my butt. Major ouch hahaha!
But it's not the number of times you fall, but the number of times you get back up.
Fruitful day for me. :)

Till then! :D

2011-09-28T20:41:00.002+08:00

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

- This is so so so meaningful. Thank you to the person who wrote this.
Kinda knock some sense into me. I hope it did make some sense to you.

2011-09-24T09:40:00.002+08:00

F1 Event yesterday! Was doing a photoshoot in the morning with zee noontalk people!
Then in the evening dasmond asked us along for F1! totally exciting!
so like me and zhongming went without our ear plugs.. We're just lazy to collect.
And... HAHA Omg it's so loud and it's kinda unbearable.

me and zhongming!

wasn't using my dslr camera so couldn't have a stable picture!

zm can't stop imitating the noise of the cars. damn funny HAHA

Special Guest of the day was Charice, GD&TOP and Seungri!
And so charice voice was amazing totally blown awayyyyyy!
We didn't intend to watch the entire performance by hers because it was kinda crowded.
So while walking out she sang crazy in love. Gosh me and zm walked back and watch it.
HAHAHAHAHAHA Loving her voice!

Charice!

look at ze crowd!

We wanted to stay and watch GD&TOP and Seungri but we have to go to sentosa cove!
So.... didn't watch it. Kinda wasted. Looking forward to see beyonce back in F1 in years to come.
Or Haley Reinhart. Loving that bad ass bitch. ;)

Till then.

2011-09-23T02:01:00.000+08:00

and the living was easy.

2011-09-18T13:41:00.004+08:00

Hello mellow! It's holiday for me hurray!
So yesterday i met geraldine for dinner at bedok and we decided to crash Junhao's place!
We decided to bake some pizzas at his place so we went over to nex and grab all the ingredients.
That crap made us wait for him for almost 2 bloody hour! Dayummmm. HAHA

howdy!

ingredients!

chef shawny making his STAR PIZZA :)

Hahahaha errrr.... Look like star right?

Added cheeze, sausages, ham! Looking good!

so we waited for like 10minutes..... and nothing seems to be changing and we realized...

we didn't turn on the switch. HAHA Holy!

finally it's done! it kinda went out of shape! HAHA

Star Pizza! :)

so right now it's junhao & gera's turn to make their pizza.
they couldn't stop complaining about how UGLY my pizza looks like. pfft.
so they decided to make a big one, simple and nice.

Hmmm..

in the making...

so like after they finished putting all the toppings, they heat it in the oven.
and finallly it's done!

junhao came and took the tray out.
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POW!

All over the flooor HAHAAHAHAHAHAH
I literally laughed my ASS out LOL so much for them laughing at my pizzza!
HAHAHAHAHAA Look at whos having the last laugh! HAHAHAHA

The pizza tasted pretty alright, kinda salty! LOL HAHA But still... nice!
Not forgetting bedok's chicken wing. totally awesome loving life.
gera says she wanna teach me oreo cheeze cake! gosh my fav i can't wait! :p

till then! :D

2011-09-16T21:21:00.004+08:00

Howdy babies!
okayyyzz! Was at dasmond place last night for dinner and we ended up deciding to go indo!
HAHAHA So we met the next morning and went for a one night stay at the resort!
was a super romantic place... kinda creepy at night HAAH but was all good! loving all ze fun!

ta da our room view! :)

look at zeee nice jetty there!

my room budd again! ZHONGMING. I swear the both of us are extremely weak!
Dasmond always tell us ghost stories in the night and the both of us end up sleeping with
the lights and television on. because we're just tooo scared. HAHAHA damn. 2 times -_-

their bumpy curvy roads!

me junjie and zhongming waiting for dasmond to finish taking pics! HAHA

me and zm!

say wuuuuuuut!

by the beach!

k la. show you guys a muscular side of me..
HAHAHAHAAHAH pretty fail but.... hmmm :)

their swimming pool is 2.4m deep! hahahaha and there are bats flying around at night!
but nothing is better than sitting by the pool, gazing at the stars. what else could i ask for?
DRINKSSSS HAHAHA

Poker-ed. Drank. Not Drunk. K-Oed within an hour. HAHAHAHAHA
was a great short trip. i wanna go back again!!! like asap! but also i wanna go bangkok on a weekend!
crapppy i have my shoot going on again. can't wait to stop getting stranded. :(
but still... i gotta learn to treasure everything i do. :)

till then peepo! (:

2011-09-12T12:34:00.002+08:00

Singapore Hit Award roadshow yesterday and also the release of the nominees!
Yay i'm nominated! 15. 最受欢迎新人奖 Most Popular Newcomer Award
My first ever nomination that is related to the music industry! So exciting!

Guests of the day!

booyah! Me and the 933 hosts! :)

thank u to those who came down and watch me! it's really encouraging. love you all. :)

yep here it is...

Chances are pretty slim for me, i know! With the fact with N09 Ke Wei & N06 Ni An Dong are in the list!
Haha but i'm still glad i'm in the list. weeeeeeeeeee :)
Voting begins on the 19th of september! will update again!

till then!

2011-09-06T10:32:00.001+08:00

Tell me you've had trouble sleeping. That you toss and turn from side to side. That it's my face you've been seeing in your dreams at night. Tell me you're not sure exactly why. Tell me that something is missing in your life. Tell me that it's not just me.

It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them further and further away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

What now.

2011-09-05T15:59:00.005+08:00

输的是我那又如何唱伤心的歌不怕谁会看出我的脆弱
伤的是我那又如何痛不必多说虽然泪流我还有选择

Ahhhh.. i kinda liked this performance of mine.
Even though my throat kinda went into douche bag mode towards the end.
I'm so feelin' this song now. I'm not okay. I admit. but i eventually, i will be. :')
Shoutout to all the lovely ones who've been writing nice stuffs to me. Thank you :)

2011-09-03T01:48:00.007+08:00

They tell you it's okay to wonder and not to worry.
If fear gets you, it's the past that you're letting control your life.
If you want something bad enough and work towards it,
there's no way, no way, it can't be yours.

I wonder.
Why do I keep forgetting what my heart desires?
and sooner or later, it turns into worry.
I am not afraid to ask, I'm not afraid to be wrong. But i'm afraid to loose.
I'm curious about the future, but I don't want to know anything about it.
my thoughts are crazy. but they are real.

2011-08-29T01:11:00.008+08:00

Why can't I just let it go? Why can't I just be like anybody else? Why do such feeling always comes back to haunt me? I've just survived one and I seriously hope I wouldn't have to endure it again. Because I seriously have no idea if I could take it. I don't know if I could survive this time around. WHY???? I have no idea what the hell am I doing seriously. I can't think properly. I don't even freaking know what the hell is in my mind. If I don't know what the hell am i thinking, then who would!!!!! WHO WOULD???!

I've come to accept lots of things.
I've come to accept all the changes in my life.
I've come to accept things that I can't last time.
I've tried my very best to just be satisfied with everything.
But I can't accept when I totally lose myself.
When I don't know what am I doing.
When I don't know what am I saying.
When I don't know what am I thinking.
I just can't accept that. And right now i totally hate it.
I have come to a point where I can't accept myself.
What is this? What the hell is happening? I hate the feeling of being left clueless.
I just don't wish to be totally crushed again.

You.

You have no idea how much you could have affected me. Simply because I looked up and respect you so much. So much that sometimes the things that you say or do. Or the things that you don't say could have killed me.
I'm sorry for being selfish.
I'm sorry for being immature.
I'm sorry for being such a retard.
I'm sorry for being such a bastard.
I'm sorry for being such a asshole.
You have no idea.

I will try. All I could do is try.
But please. Don't ever leave me alone.
I just need to find that courage.

2011-08-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

Reality has always hit me extremely hard throughout my life.
Yet, Do I wish that I'm 7 again when everything comes to me without even trying?

Basically, life's been moving on.
Sometimes I just move along with it. Sometimes it moves so fast that I'm left behind trying to chase it. Do I still try to get ahead of it and control it or rather just sit back and let it control me?

And where do I go from here?
I wish I know how to continue from here.
I am afraid. If only...

2011-08-21T01:35:00.014+08:00

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大家好！back on track, school work + gigs + assignments + works = dead.
all my school assignments are building up like no tomorrow i swear. so many drawings to do.
as much as i hated art, i still have to get through this freaking year for the next.
goshhh please speed up will you!!!! i need time for myself!

okay anyway, 囧! Hahaha the preview screening was great! being invited as the special guest.
sang a couple of songs, watched the preview with 囧1 and 2s. they're really enthusiastic!
they are veryyy united and STEADY POM BEE BEEE. Hahaha awesome! :)

poster!

i have to do 5 囧 faces.... HAHA

sad face!

interview with Jiafa on stage! :)

group photo with all the 囧 team! the CHANNEL U pose! hahaha

peifen! :) she's beautiful

had a great time with all the 囧 people! the new season is definitely better than the previous one! was hilarious and laughing out loud with xuelin and haojie! Hahaha!
You guys HAVE to watch it! check out their page here! http://www.facebook.com/letstalkpage

ok and today, had a performance @ tampines 1! Charity show organized by NTU. thank you guys for the invitation! :)

a bear as a token from the school! hahaha thanks!

check out jo recording below! hahaha

had a fruitful weekend! more events coming right up! hope to see you guys dere!
have a great week ahead! im gonna survive with school and drawings! :)

2011-08-13T02:59:00.001+08:00

Talking about the future can cause brain damage. What you really want to do in life? We had a little chat about it earlier with everyone. And I realized how much performing means to me. The feeling is indescribable. It's the only thing I picture myself doing for the rest of my life. So some of the camera crews knew about what I'm studying right now has nothing to do with performing and they're like nooooooo it's not gonna get you anywhere. Sigh, I pretty much know. But in this small little red dot, I doubt being in the media industry is gonna get me anywhere alto it's the dream that I really want. It gets a little confusing. As much as i liked being in front of the cameras, I don't really know where im heading to. Ive heard so many people telling me to not take performing so seriously. Its not gonna bring me anywhere. Right now, I no longer see the fun and joy in it anymore. I still love it but as things get really competitive, i see myself fallin. And by the time you realized how deep you fall, it's already too late and it's gonna be even harder to climb back up. So choosing to be a Director also might be another question is this red dot. How many survived and came out alive? Been reminded upteem times and I'm really unsure. Don't you just hate it when you try to make a move with one step, and here comes someone telling you to come back. I know we all should follow our own heart and listen to only yourself. But getting feedbacks from people who grew on this is definitely pulling me back. Its hard to ignore.

Being happy is everything at the end of the day...right?
So what am I happy with? Hmm..

2011-08-13T02:40:00.002+08:00

Hi all. I just came back from a wake. It sucks to be writing such kinda post, but the director who filmed my first ever show passed away. Back then in 2007, I filmed a tele movie with nat, Belinda and gang (hope you all still remember). It was my first acting experience in my whole life. Probably nobody's gonna care about this long boring post, but I have to say it. Without Dennis I probably won't have such a chance to do this show and there won't be so much doors opened for me.

So we went to the wake earlier. Dennis's mum came to me nat Belinda and Youyi. She told us that before Dennis left, he wanted his film to be played in his funeral. And so they did. While sitting there watching our old film and then looking at his portrait at the background. It struck me real hard. How I wish we all could watch this together in a happy occasion after years. Dennis mum was so strong I cant even control my emotions. He still remembers us.

What struck me the most is that I didn't see almost everyone for almost 4 years. The old fun camera crews and people. it sucks big time when your next gathering is at someone's funeral. How many time in life do you have such big gatherings? most probably 2 times, weddings and funeral. And then you just go on with your life. It just sucks.

Life is so unpredictable. It's like you can lose anyone anytime in your life. I hate goodbye so much. And as I grow older, the people/adults around me gets even older. I'm so afraid of anyone leaving. But as I say this, I might be just typing it for the sake of typing it and just hang around with my friends tomorrow. Sometimes we get so caught up in our daily lives, we don't even take notice or give a shit about people around us. We only realize such things when they're gone. This is so true. All we need to do is to give back, spend sometime at home. Take every opportunity we have and spend time with the people whom you treasure most, even little things and people that made an impact with your life, it's gonna make a huge difference without any regrets.

But also, the more time we spend with people we treasure, the more memories we will have, and the harder it is to forget. Contradicting eh? I'm also getting a little confuse about life. Somebody enlighten me a little bit?

I hate goodbye so much. How I wish this word and feeling doesn't exist.

All said and done, thank you Dennis for being such a great and patience director. You will be remembered and miss always. Rest In Peace.

From : 6128

2011-08-10T22:17:00.007+08:00

Hello! Been filming the past 5 days, and also it's our last remaining 5 days for this drama.
The entire show is done. Aww man after 2 and a half months filming with the amazing people in indonesia, inside the forest, it all came to an end. Sigh... MIXED FEELINGS. You know how suffering it is to be filming inside the forest, crazy sun, crazy mosquito, and how much i wish all this could be over soon. But now it's over and i wish i could have a few more days to film, with them. Human, we're all like this. But at least i treasured the days!
It was really amazing with the sip crew and the cast! Aww man we crack the lamest joke EVER.

Ok, so we had our last day of shoot yesterday. Here are some pictures, last day inside the forest.

US, with director, Sam Loh. He's really really a nice director! Really good.
He could be really patience with us. Sometimes we just couldn't stop laughing during ACTION. Hahaha because of our lame jokes, and he's really patience with us. Thank you sam sam sam! :)

the board! Hahaha am gonna miss charmain reading and going through our lines with us. and her doing this board thingy. chow, 板! :)

jerms, shelia, royston and me!

morning breakfast with the crews. :)

me with jerms hiding from the sun. (didn't really help)
gonna miss telling her about how much i love haley. :p

Sebestian!

royston! the guy who loves to tell us about his girlfriend(s)..... HAHAHA Opps!

the stranded kids. :)

Director sam said that if we could finish 10 scenes by 6pm he would treat all of us dinner.
AND WE DID. HAHAHAHA POPEYES!

thank you every single one of the crew in sitting in pictures, camera crew, make up artiste(s), the cast! Sebestian, Melissa, Jermaine, Shelia, Jeremy, Royston! Thank you guys for being so aweomseee. :D No, awesome is trying to be us.. hAH ZEHHH!
another good memories added into my little brain. (alto jerms said i had mega mind..) hahahah.

do remember to watch us on the oct weekend morning, the kids drama time slot. but i think our drama isnt very kiddish. rather interesting i must say! :) it's about the 6 of us being stranded in an island, lost in the abandoned island waiting for somebody to rescue us but apparently theres nobody there at all, and as we try to haunt for food and stay alive in that show. Wanna know if we survived? Remember to watch us in october! hurray :D

and thats it, lets move on to what's coming next!
Let's Talk 你在囧什么？ Screening session @ Cine Kbox on the 20th Aug.
To those who're attending, seeyou guys there! :D

2011-08-07T00:14:00.003+08:00

today is a day,
when i have no idea,
what's in my head,
how do i feel,
what should i do,
why am i going through this.

sometimes i wonder where did all the fun go.
i no longer see the joy it in. just more worries.
butlifegoeson.

2011-08-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

Boohoo! Everything feels so fast right now! All on the fastest pace going on the full speed mood. I was trying to fall asleep and some random flashbacks came to my head. It totally felt like it's just yesterday that I was queueing up to get my long pants in sec3. And today, it's day 1 of college for me. 7months of long break just ended! It didn't felt like a 7months break because I was quite fully occupied with filming and recordings. But mind set all back to school now!

Ahhh time please slow down. It can get quite depressing sometimes cuz as time passes you by so fast, you realized that you haven't been moving much. It's kinda demoralizing. All you could remember was just sitting there watching your life pass you by. I really gotta make full use of my life and grab hold onto any opportunity that comes by! To learn. Be it anything! I'm like turning 18 in 5months! Wah!! This is madly insane hahaha. But hey I'm legal for night life now... *grin*

But come to think of it, we're traveling with time right? 和时间一起旅行 :)
Hopefully this month and all the rest of the months are gonna be fruitful to me and everyone!

P/s I just took out my iPad because i couldn't sleep and decided to write a post. 10seconds later my mum came in and was like nagging about me not sleeping and playing with my iPad. How unlucky hahahaha whateverrr!

Till then,
Shawny.

2011-07-26T23:09:00.003+08:00

Met phang today for some foody marathon. (:
20 meatballs, 2 chicken wings, 2 bowl of laksa say wuuuuuuut?!
We almost went for 30 meatballs and some hotdog buns! Haha we're mad.
Eating is hella good!

and earlier the other day, some cam whoring in 313. HAHA

and end of story. k goodnight school tomorrow! (:

2011-07-24T20:56:00.005+08:00

百倍！百倍！百倍！百倍！百倍！百倍！百倍！百倍！百倍！
Sheng Shiong last night was all cool! Was filming in the morning till 4pm and gotta rush for mediacorp by 5pm.

Soundcheck time!

Back in 2007 i did a trailer for Sheng Shiong with kym & dasmond.

2007...

2011... Time flies... But hey, we're TRAVELING WITH TIME. HAHA

My girlfriend, Michelle Tay!!!! AHHH She's so adorable and lovely! :)

I was rather quite nervous before the show because it's been probably 2 years since i last performed in the mediacorp theater. But all's good when the music came on.

Hahaha haojie's pro! He managed to capture this when i pose it for the camera HAHA

Felicia & gang! Thank you for coming!

Isabella yvonne jiaen jianying and bella's sis @ mediacorp reception!
It's been so long since i saw most of them and also my fc tee!!! AHHAHA good old days :)

And to those who've missed my performance last night... Here you go!

Im really thankful for all the positive respond i get from my performance yesterday.
Really meant alot and totally encouraging. thank you everyone i'll work harder :)

And... school... orientation.... tomorrow.... *stab self*

2011-07-19T00:31:00.005+08:00

Is it normal to fear the expectations that people have on you? Sometimes I felt that people have too high of expectation for me. Although, I always tell myself that I will live my life the way I want it and I don't care what others think of me, it still always struck me. So are you lost already? To keep it simple, what people expect of me is something that I can't deny although I want to.

Anyway, Everything's been good the past few days. Everything has been happening the way I hope it would be, except for one. I just can't bring myself to deal with the certain situation although it has always been on my mind, struggling to get the best solution. One burden settled, yet another comes.

Life.

2011-07-16T17:49:00.001+08:00

Some people talk about ya, like they know all about ya
When you get down they doubt ya, and when you dip it on the scene
Yeah they talkin' bout it, cause they can't dip on the scene!

You dance up on them haters, keep getting funky on the scene
They trying to take all of your dreams, but you can't allow it!
cuz babehhh whether you're high or low, ya gotta tip on the tightrope babe!

2011-07-10T21:57:00.006+08:00

Howdy y'allll!!! I'm back from my trip a few days ago. been busy filming for the past few days.
I havent got the chance to sleeeeeeeep for like 12 hours to recharge my energy!
But all's good! filming inside the forest is way better than suffering in indonesia.
Ok am here to blog about my trip in phuket! :)

Here we goooooooo!

Went to Phuket with Zhongming dasmond haojie & Yiliang!
Stayed in Sugar palm resort! Beautifullllll. :)

pooool access!

weeee artistic!

our room!

unpack, and off we go to swim! was totally cool!
The pool water tasted a lil weird cuz there's no chlorine in it, but who cares! HAHA
Under water camera is totally boomz! blow up faces like a nigga!

yi liang!

my buddy but not my good friend but my sleeping buddy but he says i'm childish! :(
HAHAHA ZMMM!

PM! HaoJieeeee!

Under waterrrrrrr! :D

We actually went into the steam room thinking that it is the sauna and we're like.. so smoky!
HAHAHAHA Dumb or wuuut we realized the sauna is right in another corner of the pool.
Off we go to dah beachhhhhhh babies!

Would love to try this someday!

Overslept with zhongming so we didn't had our breakfast! so we went ourselves. BOMB.

super heros gonna jump into the pooool!

and after dasmond told us about pat mok's planking picture. we decided to plank too!
HAHAHA but ours is nothing compared to pat mok's. Her planking totally cracks me up!

Smileeeeeeeeeeee:D

at the beach in the night!

their city! was rather ok because all we see were BARS BARS and BARS.
Nice place for drinking though!

COCONUTTTTTs!

road side food is the sex man i swear! we totally have to grab something to eat no matter how full we were!

dinner time! :D

this is a portable van! for drinking!

lemon twist! i suck at drinking my entire face gets reallllllly red after one cup. noob me.
But wasn't drunk! sober! Zm was extremely drunk he couldn't even open the water tap!
Quite an entertaining show put up by him till 4am! HAHA

Happy 22nd birthday to zhongming! :D

here's a little clip filmed and edited by me! :)

thats all about it! kinda miss the place with all the night horror movies marathon!
good trip with them! for now i'm all back into work. and school's starting for me!
Am not ready ok.... The thought of it makes me wanna dig a hole and hide myself in it.
But am rather excited to see what's ahead for me!

Sheng Shiong, 23rd July, Saturday, 9pm! :)

Till then toodles! :)

2011-07-02T21:08:00.004+08:00

Went over to jo's place on wed to celebrate her birthday! also to icing room to do a cake for herrrrr!
not really do a cake but to design a cake for her. hehehe i drew it！
was pretty bad at writing because my hands are shaking idk why. HAHA

shifu shawny!

WE LOVE JOANNA! :)

baby june ;)

Groupppppppp photo!

had a great mini gathering with everyone except ngeow zijie. always busy as usual! tsk.
we're forming a mini band ourselves! how exciting!!!!!! hehehehehe!

met jonne & phang earlier for a farewell lunch. Joanne's leaving for aust in a weeks time! :(
no more camera woman for my events. walkingcheeseeeeeeeeeee! bon voyage, take care! :)
see you soon when you're back from aust! it's probably jan and it's the king's birthday. HAHA!

DOPE! leaving for phuket with haojie dasmond yiliang zm on monday! can't wait!
gotta pack my luggage now else i have no time tomorrow! byeeeeeeeee :)

2011-06-29T14:07:00.002+08:00

skittie skittles!

2011-06-27T11:59:00.004+08:00

Stranded @ Tanjung Pinang!
Finale scenes last week was a blast. Extremely tiring, challenging but fun!
Under the hot sun, with the mosquitoes, no toilets, no joke.
All in this to suffer together! But all's good! :)

left to right : Jeremy, Me, Melissa, Jermaine, Royston!

check out meng with his BOOMZ mic. So boomz.

filming on the top of the yacht, near middle of the sea! Was a tough scene with 2 boats!

close up tortures. Hahaha!

Waiting to be kidnapped. HAHA

Rottttting....

with the director, sam!

loving this picture! This could actually carry many of us! but the middle sank after a few hours.
HAHAHAHA too many people on it.

not forgetting the pizza huts for dinner! i swear their pizzas and pasta was hellyeah!
So damn good i wish singapore pizzas are as nice as theirs! yummy i'm hungry now.
and also the million dollar project! for pizzas 1.4million!!!!! In rupiah. HAHAHA

i'm g0nna miss the place alittle. even though its really tough and tiring,
but its totally a fun and a meaningful experience! I'm glad its over! but alittle sad too! :(
Do stay tune to our show in oct! Be prepared to look at the dirty and oily me on tv. GAH

till then!
shawny.

2011-06-26T13:35:00.008+08:00

I'm backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! Just landed in singapore this morning!
Havent really been staying at home for almost a month... I kinda miss my nothing-to-do life.

Been filming in Indonesia till last thursday, then went to malaysia on friday for performance!
Was good! RiWay Company invited me over to their 3rd anniversary dinner. Was totally grand!
And also....... Riway company is donating $8 to charity for every album purchased!
So do suppport my album & also play a part in helping the needy families ;)

Shall blog about my penang trip! Went with haojie & my dad! :)
Stayed in a 6 stars hotel, was totally cool and the king of malaysia happen to be there as well!
Went to the snake temple to pray! It was quite scary but fun!

Looka!!! It's alive! And look and their skins.....

and more on the branches.

then we went to visit the snake temple! was ..... scary!

look at the giant snakes! Pity they were hibernating else i could see the head of the snake!

So this snake is actually quite famous in the temple.
It's known to be a lucky snake, and if you stroke it from the head to the tail,
you will be lucky throughout the whole year! And brave me, i did! HAHAHA :D
So you might ask how does it feels like? It feels like your branded bags. HAHA

and it's.............. COCONUT TIME! :)

hardworking uncle opening our coconuts! ;)

DOPE!

Hungry HaoJie. HAHAHAHA

In the cab!

and talking about cabs, their meter jumps really quick!!!!
Now i think i should treasure Singapore taxis fare more. Y'all know how much our cab fare cost.
2 ways, and it's like traveling for less than 30 minutes, it cost us....

Like wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut?!?!? No joke.

Was really bored in the hotel so we went for a swim!
Actually only me because haojie was too lazy to remove his contacts! -_-

So funny! You can actually wave this flag in the pool, and the waiter will come and take your orders!
plus, you can see how badly tan i am. Two colors on my neck! HAHA

Day 2, went for cha kway tiao! Famous stall!!!

this auntie cooks about 1000 plates a day!
One plates cost 8RM, which means she gets about 8K RM in a day! :O

Tasted pretty okay for me. Not really a WOW but worth trying :)

O LUAAAAAAAA!

tada! :)

Went back to the hotel to rest for like 5 hours -_- was really bored
took a nap and woke up to do my make up and hair for the night's event! :)

in the holding room with my album! :)

double chins for the win ;)

The whole event was really grand and there were a thousand over people!
All from singapore, malaysia, taiwan & indonesia! A great crowd!

thank you riway for the invitation! ;)

really great trip! now i'm at home for good! no more traveling! Ok maybe not.
Am going for a retreat with dasmond haojie zm and yilang! Can't wait!!!!!!!!
For now i'm gonna rest and spend more time with my familyyy ;)

And yes! 和时间一起旅行 is top 18 in 933 Chart!! Thank you to those who voted!
You guys can still vote! One vote per person every week! Goooooo! Thank you all!!

Okay rest time. DOPE!
BYE :)

2011-06-20T01:07:00.004+08:00

Peeka! I actually wrote a long post and..... i raped the close button. Not cool.

Anyway, yay! Thank you guys so much for voting for 和时间一起旅行 in YES 933fm 醉心龙虎榜!
We made it into the top 20 chart within a week! Keep your votes coming in ya!! :)
Text "POTP933 和时间一起旅行" and send it to 72346! Each Vote Cost 30Cents.
Spread the love like how ya spread nutella on your bread! :)

And also! My article on xinmsn is out! Read them here!

My interview video is here!

and heres a short clip of me singing 和时间一起旅行!

video credits to xinmsn & walkingcheesee!

for the rest of my performance clips, you can watch them here. Thank you jirostar123 for uploading :)

Nowwwwwww I'm leaving to Indonesia tomorrow. Will only be back after a week!
Am heading to penang also for my album performance! I'm so excited!
Will be back with more pictures! :)

Toooodles! :)

2011-06-18T22:04:00.010+08:00

Photo/Video credits : Nicholas Tan, Queenie Yap, Felicia Liew, Huixian, Xinmsn Crew!

Reached singapore yesterday after 2 weeks of surviving in Indonesia! was a POW.
you know the moment i reached home was super.... -dont know how to explain-
but i freaking miss home so much especially my... refrigerator. HAHAHA
My dog came barking the moment i step into the house. Awww... Home's the best!

Went for 933fm interview in the evening with jiafa! I was really nervous if you tuned in.
Then went for Japanese dinner with my family, zhiwei, zhongming dasmond and mufa!
Was hella funny because the waitress kept telling dasmond how handsome and skinny he is.

And today, a big day for me! woke up with red eyes because of my flu. :(
reached east coast with the helpers for the event! was really nervous but all good!
the crowd came in and the album sales begin!

The cake! :)

me and dasmondd :)

Wayne and huixian's nephew! I swear the both of them are totally like angels. :)

The helpers for the day!

Singing my heart out for those who came! :)

the media and press. :)

My mum's birthday! :)

Singing the birthday songgg.:)

Signing for felicia and gang! :)

me dasmond and my mum! :)

interviewing :)

thank you felicia diao and alena for this beautiful hand made card!!! :) <3

yay!

Loving this picture! :)

haven't been signing for quite awhile! hehehe ;)

thank you liew for the pic! :)
i know i look super tanned here. HAHAHA

fans, friends, family as well as the press and media came. thank you guys for taking time for this! (:

GERA & JUNHAO! :) thank you so much for the bouquet of flowers and the cupcakes! :)

Jeremy! One of the actors in my current drama! And with his babe! lookin' good!

Cousins unite!

felicia, joanne, alena and gigi! thank you guys for the card and cookies!! XIE XIE!

Queenie & pamela! muel muel thanks for everything! and also the present from hk!:D

cake of the day! travel with time, its a luggage above! hahaha

my grandparents on stage for the media pictures! :)

little wayneeee :)

family pictureeee! :)
and also happy birthday to my mum! it's her birthday today!! <3

thank you to the fans who came today as well! hope y'all like my song and performance! :)
and also a Eurasian came down to buy my album!!!! Was damn happy about it! Hahaha!
thank you xinmsn and wanbao for the interview as welllll. :)

Thank you to those who made this album and event possible,

Da ge for hosting the event and helping out in writing some of the songs!
you've helped so much and i dont even know how to thank you enough. Really!
You;ve taught me so much along the way i think i can write a book about it soon HAHA
Thank you thank you so much! Retreat soon? When? HAHA Xie xie ni Dasmond!!!!!!

Hao jie, zhongming gosh y'all awesome!!!
Thank you so much for everything and i kinda caused your pimples and panda eyes... HAHA
But really thank you guys for all the help you gave! Can't thank you guys enough too.
HAHAHA! Thank you we shall go for supper more often hahaha!

Eugene zhiwei, Mufa and girlfriend for helping out in the events and also planning, thank you!!!!
CSS friends for helping out in the song and mtv as well! Love y'all!!
Dreambox for your studio, terence and ray thank you guys!
Nic & Sam! you guys are super good thank you so so so much for the songs!

stella for the clothes and wardrobe, dewei for the mtv and planning! :)
thank you joanne from heatwave for making my hair!
Nicholas for doing my super boomz hair today hahahaha!
teng for designing the album cover! :)
thank you to my family and friends who've been really supportive!
Fans and people who encouraged me thru twitter and facebook, thank you so much so much :)
Thank you to those who made this possible.

So blessed to have so many nice and caring people around me. really thank you so much.
I just can't thank enough, bear it with me. they've showered too much love for me. :')
Love you all and also those who've been supporting me! :)

So now i have a 1 day break before i go back to Indonesia and continue with my filming.
will be heading to penang the next day i'm back from Indonesia to perform! so excited!
i will update this space with my pictures! i promise ! :)

Albums are available in all CD rama stores!
Radio 75 is celebrating it's 75 years anniversary! They will donate $8 for every album bought!
The money will go to the 75 low income families that they're helping! so grab yours today okay?

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Till then.
shawny. :)

2011-06-08T22:14:00.010+08:00

Vote for my song 和时间一起旅行 in Yes933醉心龙虎榜!
Text "POTP933(space)和时间一起旅行"
and send it to 72346!
Each vote cost 30cents. Spread the loveeeeeee! :)

Hey y'all!!! I'm currently doing a 乐乐窝 drama shoot in indonesia!
So like it's been reallllllly hectic everyday. Mad crazy schedule!
We wake up at 5am everyday for shoot, and a 45minutes boat journey.
Then another half a kilometer walk. To the island that we're filming at.
UNDER THE SUN. so shingz.

Title!

Look at the viewww! :)

The four of us, will be acting as 4 kids stranded in a island, trying to survive. :)

Samantha & camera man!

with the director, sam! :)

when we reach the place...... we needa get out of heaven to hell.

dirty oily waters.

This is our toilet.... YES for the whole day shoot. from 7am - 6pm. :(

In the boat with jeremy!

sunset! :)

It's been really tiring and i'm all burnt now because of the sun. I'm as red as a lobster AHHA
will be back with more pictures!

as for now, see y'all on the 18th for the album launch!

till then! :)

2011-06-01T02:00:00.002+08:00

Hello Mellow! Shall update this space here with a short post!
My first ever album will be release on the 18th of june! It's like 17 days from now!
Who's excited/!?!?!?!? :D

And.... i'd be away to Indonesia for a 乐乐窝 drama shoot! I'm going this sunday, for 1 month. :(
Ok not really a month, but 19 days to be exact.
I'll be back on the 17th night, launching my album on the 18th afternoon, and back to indo in the evening.
Sounds really hectic. I hope i could survive my lifee there!
I hope there's internet excess there so i could update my blog more for you guys okie!

do remember to save up alittle and buy a copy of my album okay!? :D

heres a photo of me and wayne!

till then!

2011-05-25T23:23:00.004+08:00

《和时间一起旅行》- 6月18日
Travel With Time - June 18th 2011.
Hinty hint. :)

Be back! Soon :)

2011-05-18T00:38:00.004+08:00

Haven't been blogging. haven't been blogging. Soooo sorry and i'm back! (for awhile)
HAHAHA okay anyway things have been coming for me and it's really hectic. But fun.

Been meeting haojie and dasmond for the past 2 weeks. So let the pictures to the talking :)

CREW CREW CREW.

Been spending my time really wisely. I'm totally learning new stuffs everyday!
I'll be back real soon with more stuffs ya. I'll see you guys soon, real soon. :)

everyday i'm shufflingggggggggg.

and HELL YEAH THIS CHICK MADE IT INTO THE TOP 3 OF IDOLS. YEAH YEAH!

2011-04-28T02:22:00.002+08:00

Back! alive and kickin' with a dork haircut.
Ok i seriously know that i shouldnt cut my fringe away it's like utterly nightmare. IKR.
Oh well.... lesson learnt.

Anyway, been really beeesy the past few days. Studio performance at ngee ann poly!
Day one with singapore idol, duane. Day 2 with gigi! Directors joanne & felicia! wooooo~

Director Diao = Cai Dao. (kueh) HAHA

'So Sick' Cover by me. Duane on the piano! :)

the busy crew at the back. hahaha

Day 2 was rather tiring and messy because we chose the song fireworks by katy.
It was an extremely harsh and sudden choice that killed me, at least.
Kudos to phang for not laughing on set! Thank godddd. HAHA!

great and awesome days spent though! coraline with felicia for like 2hours!
and youtube for another 2 hours with diao chua and oreo. ROTTERSSSSS!
Ok this post is so messy hahaha ok shall blog soon agn. till then. :)

2011-04-20T20:19:00.007+08:00

JUSTIN BIEBER WORLD TOUR - Singapore.
Met jo in the noon to watch JB's movie, never say never. It was really great. :)
Headed down to kallang leisure and the entire mall was purplelicious.
Sooooo many young fans of his. And many flew down from overseas to watch him!

Our ticket was like, 228!!! So we're kinda infront. But yet not so front. LOL
The warm up was totally awesome! Everyone was damn high i swear it felt like we're clubbin.
Great music and great start to the show.

ONE LESS LONELY... fan,

now put your hands up~

And here comes bieber! He was totally awesome that night! Talented, very.

totally one lucky girl!

Was completely blocked by all the kids standing on the chairs infront of us.
Everyone was standing up and screaming and dancing etc...

the best part of the day was.....
Joanne Lim Kia San took off her shoes half way through the concert. IDK WHY.
And after which she realized that she lost the right side of her shoe. GONE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA FUNNY?!?!
and at the end of the concert, we found her shoes a few rows behind us, under a seat.
Totally aunty lucy's SO EMBARASSING~~

Joanne likes to lose one side of her stuffs.... Here is one edvience.

joanne and her missing sock @ sentosa back in 2009. HAHAHA

OK TILL THEN BYEEEEE :D

2011-04-18T18:57:00.006+08:00

Ice skating weekend!
Had a awesome Sunday with dalveen riza jonathan and nana! Was great!
We're on ice for the first time and i freaking swear it's tough to even balance.
it's been quite awhile since we all went out together as a group! ;)

Lunch at pastamania! :)

the 5 idiots who were stuck at the side because we can't even balance!
we got in on for 30minutes or so! except jon who totally can move. HAHAHA kudos.

and finally all of us managed to move. like literally move. HAHAAH
was really tough with aching toes! but it was really fun.

:)

Im the only survivor that day who didn't fall! HAHAHA Kudos to me.
And here are some tips for iceskating.

1) Wear dark colors bottom!!!
or else your ass might look like this.. (Riza's wet ass)

2) Fall gracefully!
or else nobody will give a shit about you.
look at the poor helpless girl in the middle of the ice. HAHA!

3) Skate in pairs!
so even if you fall, you fall with someone.. and you will not look stupid alone. HAHAHA ;)
Look at khouna's priceless expression when she was about to fall... ;)

4) Be a kid!
If you really can't skate but you wanna move around. be a kid.
And this is Riza the newbird trying out.

5) Hang onto the side!
If you really really can't skate, and really am too afraid to move around. be like this
go round and round and round holding onto the side till time is up, just like dalveen. :p
and you could be found easily cos you revolves at the side ONLY... ;)

Okie dokie great day spent. till then. :)

2011-04-17T01:40:00.004+08:00

Family enjoys meal in cafe, but tells maid to stand at one side.

Y'all kidding me? Seriously? Singaporeans?
I usually give no shit about the stomp stories, but hell this is totally inhuman.

The STOMPer tells us more (Apr 16):

"I spotted this family at Marina Square, in the cafe Bao Today.

"They apparently asked the maid to stand at one side.

"Maid abuse?

"Initially I noticed a figure standing behind me after the family came in.

"The family noticed that I took pictures of them, so they asked her to sit down. But she was still left at the corner.

"I approached her to offer her a drink but she just shook her head. Tears were welling up in her eyes.

"She said she was part of that family.

"She looked like she was quite new.

"The family finished their food and left, but their maid did not eat a single bite."

As quoted from the stomp article, I totally feel the poor house keeper. What is in that family's brain?
I mean seriously, the mother make such mistakes, and so the rest of the family members didn't give a damn about that?
Wtf is wrong with this society?
Every time when i passes by a maid agency, i totally could see those poor maids,
looking at you with those helpless and sad look.
Com'on they are freaking human, smarty pants! I hope karma hits you in your face.
Like now.

Zipp it.

2011-04-17T01:31:00.002+08:00

I don't know if i can. Too much doubts and surrounded by those amazing threats.
I wonder if i can make it. I hope i can do it but com' on, i need to do something about it.
I can't possibly sit here and wait for an apple to drop from the tree. I need the ladder.
Damn. I have to believe.

#icandoit #icandoit #icandoit #icandoit #icandoit #icandoit #icandoit
i so reckon i'll be fine. but when? sigh.

2011-04-09T03:03:00.003+08:00

Had a crazy hectic friday. Was totally into my own little world back then.
Left school and rushed down to NUS for a little interview with the NUS peeps.
It's all about the NEA Eco music challenge compilation album season 1 :)
Yes, i've sang one of the winner entries, but the chinese versions.
Our track consist of campus superstar 2 peeps, Huixian, Joanna & Guohao!
so do support the album and listen to us! its been quite awhile yea!

the interview was done with NUS radio pulze Deejays and also channel 5's one moment of glory winner, jill! :)

ok the studio was extremely cute! it's like a little mini tree house!
i'd love to have a studio like this some day. hehehehehe

i'm so glad my headache is gone! like poooof! gotta stay cool for awhile before i work my ass off.
be..be..be.. bennie & the jetssssss is da sex. ;)
haley reinhart better be the next american idol!! Imma have all my fingers crossed.

2011-04-04T12:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it amazes how life works.
When you think you could never find anything else, the most unexpected thing happened.
Everything that everyone has known me for. But yet, things always don't work out for me.
And I could never get an answer for it. Why am I still here.
I've tried so hard but nothing comes out of it. And it always leaves me wondering:

But like I've said, And I begin to wonder.
Is this a new beginning for me? Is this the turning point for me? For the better?
It's different. I want to go for it. I just wish it would work out for the best.

I always have to ruin things that I love.

2011-04-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

BANGKOKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK TRIP was cool.
the weather there was freaking 17 degree. believe it or not?!?!?! I was shivering cold.
The weather in bangkok was usually 28-30, like singapore. But because of the tsunami,
it kinda affected the weather and it's now cold!!!!!! Nice to shop in cold weathers :)

air asia, once. not gonna take it anymore. urgh can't stand it.

beautiful sky! :)

The crazy traffic, crazy countdown. Stuck all da time!

went to the well known famous four face Buddha to pray. My prayers have been heard. Kinda.... Thank you. :)

my aunt and uncle praying.. :)

Then went to siam paragon to visit the under water world! It's so so so gorgeous.
I've been there 2 years ago, and i insist in going back again because it's really very beautiful.

stingrays!!!!!!!!!!!!

So beautiful!

Look at the mini little fishes in the fridge! So cuteeeeee. hehe

FISH SPA! and look at the shark behind me. HAHA ITS REAL BTW.

Cute or wuuuut? :)

Feeding the sharks! :)

Whats next? SHOPPPPPPPPPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!
I love shopping in bangkok because you literally can just buy stuff without considering. IMO
I bought like 10 over shirts previously. But this time i kinda buy what i really need. Don't wanna spend on unnecessary stuffs that flood my wardrobe.

MBK!!! Really good that my hotel is right beside MBK. Just a 2minute walk over. :)

wanted to buy this! but i will prolly wear it to sleep so decided not to. HEHE
"I'm following you, your tweets are creepy!" HAHA

the CHEAPER LAH queen. :)

cute lil thai kid performing for donations. :)

They're selling puppies JUST LIKE THAT! How sad....

poor doggy asking for donations... :(

two kids smiling to my cam! hahaha cute :)

keypads slippers, anyone? :)

roasted pig for dinner! Yummy :)

The following day, ROASTED PORK BURGER in macdonal. Have you try it before?
Try it next time when you're in bangkok! Niceeeeee :) Sorry to the malay readers.

crazy cars.

the toy display was stuck... and this was what i saw.
HAHAHAHAHA literally laughed my ass out.

80cents oreo ice cream!!!!!!!

then we went to the night market to shop. it was crazy cheap.

look at those shops selling shoes!!!!!!!!!

boxers, anyone?

my new clothes for my iphone and ipod. :)

we went there with 3 bag, came back with... 5? and one more not shown. HAHA

with my mama at the airport :)

the trip was really awesome! lookin forward to more! hopefully there is. :)
i'm ending my post with wayne wayne :)

the naughty boy wearing my shoes! hahaha

ok till then. ciaos :)

2011-03-27T18:12:00.004+08:00

Swimmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. It's been so long since i last swam.
Ok its actually more like soaking in the water and kill time rather than to really swim.
Brought along my underwater cameraaaaa. The virgin one, yes! Weeee was really cool.
But the weather was such a bitch. Immediately turned cloudy when i'm at mo's condo.
9 out of 10 pictures were extremely unglam! HAHAHA Epic faces underwater.

Can't wait to do more snaps underwater with really nice sunlights. Anticipate!
Okie dokie, i'm so excited! I'm flying to bangkok in a few hours time!
Miss me yea. ;)

x.

2011-03-26T23:18:00.001+08:00

yea sup?

2011-03-25T14:54:00.006+08:00

Class chalet yesterday!
Was rather.... i shall say bored because everyone was in their own little world. Oh well.
Finally met yeeswen & shikin! Its been quite awhile! :)

so she knows birds flyin high. ;)

Headed home for American idol instead of staying overnight. and hell yeah, HALEY REINHART!
She was extremely crazy sexy smoking hot last night with those shorts. Crazy hot legs yo.

And Yay she sailed through the next spectacular of Idols and is going for the idol tour!
She have been in the bottom group 2 weeks in a row. And this week she is safe! fyeah! :)
Her voice is totally amazing and i so love her growl! Hot chick haley!
Praying that she'll be the next American idol although i know she's gonna get the boot soon LOL.

ok shall end my post with my puppy!

skittles said, bye! :)
till then.

2011-03-23T03:35:00.005+08:00

It would seem to you that I am just another human being on this planet.
I laugh, I cry, I love, I hurt, I hate, I am happy, I am miserable...
I just wish to find a peace of mind...

I'm afraid of having to stay here my whole life. This place stinks and is nothing compared to what I used to know..
Losing everything i had? Don't I realize it? Or am I just too stupid to realize it?
But I always lose things, people etc.
I always do.
I always do.
I always freaking do.
Why do I always lose everything? I think i don't even need to be answered.
Cos I know. It's just me!
How I wish I don't mucking exist..

Take me away... please...

2011-03-19T22:42:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry. I will continue being who I am. I can't change.
I'm not ready to take another blow.

I wish you could read my mind. But wishing that you won't run away from me once u can.
It's so tough to keep it inside. I want you to know. I do.
But I'm not ready and I know you are not. What can I do about it?

It's so painful to not get what you want,
but it is even more painful to know what you want, yet you can't get what you want.
Not because you have not tried hard enough.
Simply because of something that I can't control.

Happiness doesn't come just like that, We are the one who have to go for it.

2011-03-19T01:06:00.007+08:00

Sometimes you just have to grab opportunities that come your way.
I hate myself for not able to do something at my maximum level. I blame myself if I ever to screw things up.
Because I just want to make full use of all the opportunities given. And I want to grow with it.
But chances are really rare these days. Where are they?

Sometimes I wish I slow things down and really think.
I just hate the fact that I'm at such a position where i have nowhere to go except up.
But yet. People on top are always loneliest.

I wish I could make a decision without thinking of the future.
Afterall, who can predict the future?

2011-03-10T02:28:00.004+08:00

I would pay millions to anyone who could tell me exactly what am I feeling. I have no idea what am I doing lately.

I'm really sorry for all my boring blog post lately, i know i haven't really been myself.
So what happened? You might ask.

I just smiled. Keep smiling. And keep smiling. Trying to cover whatever that's inside by smiling and here i am, I just keep smiling.
I don't even get it. My smiles maybe fake, but at least i don't get unwanted attention by making someone else worry.

I have so many people telling me that they envied my life so much and i was like wondering why?
Except my family, i have no idea what's so good about my life? I don't have a proper life.
Thats it. Everything's been falling. And all i have is myself to deal with all these on my own.
Seriously, how many more times do I have to feel my heart sank whenever I heard what others say about me?
I smile. I'm still that guy whom everyone thinks i am, yet i am not. No Longer.
And I'm not only getting older, I'm also getting 'worse' at such things.

I'm giving up...

But i'll take things as lightly as I could so i will still have the strength to deal with all the shit that might happen in the end.

That's pretty much it.

2011-02-28T19:22:00.006+08:00

Awesome and almost perfect day at marina barrage. The rain just HAD to spoil it. Damn.
But thank god it's just a small drizzle that lasted for 15minutes or so. Hahaaaaa
Bought the rainbow squid kite and here we go.......

Gera made us a Bento box each! It's damn damn damn sweet and cute and nice! :)
And also the rainbow cake made by junhao and gera! Awesome veli da chio. ;)
We totally couldn't stand the glaring sunlight LOL. Went back after an hour or so.
Then we went to cycle at east coast! HAHAHA Can't stand the pain-ness in our butt.
We ended the 2hour ride within 1hour. CAB CAB CAB like there's no tomorrow.

Great day spent! Hehehe if only everyday is like this...... :)
okie dokie shall be back with more.

2011-02-25T03:10:00.001+08:00

sitting alone...
the air-con...
it's getting really cold...
yet here I am...
Why you might ask?
Although I would like to answer...
but I can't...
or rather I don't know how to...
It's weird sometimes...
to even think about what I think about...
It's about time...
to let go of things that I know I should have ages ago...
Would I regret this?
maybe i will... but do I have any other choice?
do i?

2011-02-21T16:04:00.003+08:00

Vote for him here!

2011-02-19T15:29:00.004+08:00

I'm left wondering what the hell have I done wrong?
I really do hate myself sometimes for being such an ignorant bastard.
I have reached the same place that I had been before in 2009, where i just pretend that everything's going my way when it is obviously not. At all.

Feeling so incomplete. Am I reaching for nothing, or just to much?

2011-02-17T18:27:00.005+08:00

I want to paint my face and pretend that I am someone else. Sometimes I get so fed up, i don't even wanna look at myself.
But i know there are people with problems that are far worse than mine.
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time. I am slowly falling apart. I wish I could all start over.
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start. You might think its easy being me.

Everyone pretends to treat me a little older but in fact look at me like a ten year old.
Where did everybody go? Or did I walk away? All the words in the world can't change where we are now.

I run away when i can't deal with something. Thats me.
I'm not strong enough to deal with it. I'm not. But i'll just try to agree with you.
All I need is within me. I hope. And all I need to be happy is right in front of me.

2011-02-16T16:21:00.005+08:00

2011-02-15T17:33:00.003+08:00

Fake Smile :)(

2011-02-13T13:48:00.006+08:00

If you think you are unhappy...
Just a gentle reminder about how fortunate we are. I'm reminding myself, too.
To give more and complain less.

If you think you are unhappy..

If you think your salary is low..

If you think you don’t have many friends…

When you feel like giving up...

If you think you suffer in life,
do you suffer as much as he does?

If you complain about your transport system …

If your society is unfair …

Enjoy life, how it is, and as it comes
There are always those who are worse
off than we are. There are many things
in your life that will catch your eye, But
only a few will catch your heart…pursue those…

Credits : Tumblr.

2011-02-12T19:25:00.004+08:00

A great random midnight movie with the above last night!
We're actually deciding on The Rite or Triangles, and we've decided to go for triangles,
because june and satay are gonna have nightmare watching the rite. Haha tsk!

The show was quite an old show in the other countries, shown in the year 2009.
Hahaha the show really had us going and it's really a weird cum cool cum shit show.
Story line was rather creative but with really sucky ending. REALLY SUCKY ENDING.
And there was a couple of error and mistakes here and there. Plus fail wide shots!! -_-
It's all about deja-vu going on and on.....repeating again and again...and.. again.
Although the ending suck, but i kinda like this show! Hahahahaha
I think the show of the title should be called SQUARE instead of triangles. LOL
Because at the end of the day, everything's back to square one. Hahahaha!

When the show ended, zijie was like, "这个戏还没做时，我就有一个感觉自己已经看过这部戏。。"
I was like wtf!! HAHAHA Funny shit. you have to watch the show to understand what he meant.
We couldn't stop talking about that interesting-yet-shit show while walking from cine to tiong baru in the middle of the night. 2.9km walk it was insane but not tiring.. :D Hahaha funny.

Went for macdonal to wait for the first morning train. Was a mega yawn i swear.
plus i was having gastric and it's killing me so freakin bad. DAAH.
Oh well.. i wanna watch the rite! Like now! Argh :(

The trailer for triangle.

Okie dokie till then. ;)

2011-02-10T14:10:00.006+08:00

Went to Valentino fashion exhibition at rws yesterday with ongsie riza dalveen maha and yani!
Finally met everyone after a month or so! Miss ya'll so damn much!
Had a great night with everyone! Thank you sunray for the tickets! :)
We only took 15minutes or so looking at the exhibits. haha oh well....
Then went to universal studio to watch the beautiful fireworks! It's really awesome!
So much laughter and not forgetting that $40 cab home ride. cheap bitches haha.
Thank you guys for the awesome night! xx

2011-02-09T01:17:00.004+08:00

hehehe chinese new year's awesome! show you guys my beloved friends!!
Zijie, guohao, elaine, mavis, joanna, huixian and me! haha!
ok we actually tried to take some serious "family" picture of us. not smiling,
and.... i look like some chaobengz in the pictures. Argh i should dye my hair back :(

Oh well... Pictures with mouth speaks. Go!!!!

Day 2 visiting @ dasmond's place. hahaha we wii-ed!! Oh whats new.
Ok amy karen and xueling jie's new to the game we're like laughing hardly!!! haha

Day #3 me with kobe! haha i wanna have a dog like kobe!!! :)

and day 5 was OMGGGG. I totally didn't touch my erhu for like.. 6 years!
And i could still play it! But there were like flaws everywhere. But still!!!!
I miss those day where we practiced for syf!! good old days. :')

Okeh i'm all worn out. imma hit the sack bye babes..and hunks. :)

2011-02-03T22:01:00.006+08:00

baby hush hush. :)

Happy new year guys! We snap like.. really many pictures today.
I'm totally lazy to post em'. Haha oh well.. i'm getting lazier.
I kinda think that i've lost my blogging bug. Completely.
I'm really into just summarizing my day with a picture and a sentence.
Followers don't go yea? Till i find back myself. :)
Till then.

2011-02-02T19:27:00.006+08:00

HUAT AHHHHHHHHHHHH ;)
Morning performance at Yumin primary school with AiJia!
Woke up with really sleepy eyes but i know its gonna be a good day!
Plus the fact that Queenie is gonna be with us for our performance today. Helper #1. ;)

In the holding room waiting for the show to start! :)

Everything will be alright, tomorrow will be fine! :)

Cny Duet! :)

The two rascals! I actually didn't know that they(my cousins) were studying in this school.
And they appeared yesterday during my rehearsal. Cute much? :)

With aijia's primary school teacher and also my cousin's teacher!

Then we went over to aijia's house for lunch. hohoho queenie dirty little secert. dogs.
hehehehe ok thats an inside joke. okay happy lunar new year guys!
hope ya'll get lots of hong bao and don't only eat all the crackers but also to drink more water!
Have an awesome cny!! :)

Bye! :)

2011-02-01T00:51:00.005+08:00

HEYYLO. Been quite busy helping out at the chinese new year booth in amk hub.
It's all over! Awww gonna miss that place and everyone! Oh well... :)
So like, i was on my way to the booth yesterday and ada jie text me.
She said that she had tickets to watch super juniorrr live concerrtt!! AHHAHA
I was like, Eh!!! FREE WHY NOT/!?! HAHAHAHAHA
Plus the fact that i am not into Kpops and i didn't listen to any Kpops except wonder girls.
So i kinda decided to go with a fresh mind! HEHEHEHE

Boss (a.k.a Dasmond Koh) approved by day off! HAHA Chey boss sehhhh.
So i went to meet ada jie and veron jie to watch SUJU! :)

LOOK AT DA CROWD. We're right infront, mosh pit! HEHE :)

Ada Jie, Veron Jie and me! :)

Was rather depressed that i can't bring my camera along because i was told that the security
check our bags before entering.. in the end the whole world took out their cameras la!!!! >;(
So..... iphone cam...... sorry for the bad quality yaaaa. HHAHA

I have to admit that they were really awesome!!!!!!! I was very impress by the way they handle the crowd.
They interacted with their screaming fans and they could really dance and sing duper well!
All of them were like running around the indoor stadium. Really awesome.
I won't mind paying to watch them next time. hehehehe :)

Thank you Singtel & Ada Jie for the tickets! :)

Till then. Bye! :)

2011-01-24T22:50:00.006+08:00

I've decided not to sign on anymore and this is gonna be another new start for me.
I'm excited for what the future holds now. Obstacles? Bring it on baby.
Knock me down ten times, i'll get back up from my ass for 11 times. :)

People always give me those kind of look that says: "You sure anot!?!"
If I'm choosing, I'm gonna pick on the simple one.
Just caring for myself and a few others whom I think deserve my attention.
But if you were me, which one would you choose?

Should I or shouldn't I?
I've decided on the best decisions that I could make with the current situations that I'm in now.
I guess I'm gonna stuck at this moment where I can't move on. It's gonna be extremely tiring.
But don't worry, no regrets.
There is a better place that awaits me, i'll see you there. :)

2011-01-24T02:31:00.003+08:00

SUP YALL. Been helping out in Dasmond's stall @ Amkhub lately plus my QBB events. :)
Selling all the different chinese new year goodies was kinda fun! Haha met new people,
plus it's also really funny to meet funny and weird costumers. Hehehe :)
Thank you those who came down and support the booth! We will be open till the 1st of feb!
So do drop by anytime before the 2nd of febuary! :)

Photo Credits to Dasmond's fans who came down and tagged me in facebook! ;)

1 Package consists of Pineapple tarts, Almond biscuits, Cereal Cornflakes biscuits & Biscotti, costs $50.
Is a worth buy with 4 different kinds in 1 package.

You can buy it for:
-1 for $14.
-4 for $50. (Comes with a beautiful box)

It is not a must for you to get 4 different kinds. You can get the choice of yours in 4, like 2 Pineapple tarts & 1 Almond biscuits & 1 Cereal Cornflakes. :))
So do head down when 18th Jan onwards! Grab it before it is gone! =P
Credits : Joyce Stella

Do Come to Ang Mo Kio Hub, Basement Level 1, the booth is right behind coffee bean.
It's easy to spot us because we have two huge banners with dasmond & joshua's face on it.
SEEYA GUYS THERE!!! :)

2011-01-19T00:57:00.006+08:00

Ok back to blog! I've been kinda busy these day. But i can't really what i'm busy with.
Probably kbox with josh? (you got that) hahaha! Tsk. Thats what you get for a 4 months holiday. Oh well..

Uncle's wedding yesterday! :)
Ok i had to like sleep over @ my aunt's place because i need to open the car door for the groom.
The chinese trad is really kinda troublesome. Just my two cents. LOL
But at least i earned myself a few hongbaos for just opening the doors. Hhehehe :)

Look at wayne! He's so damn adorable! Wore the same as him! Hahaha!
Sang a few songs at the wedding, was really fun and also, romantic. :)

My uncle got really drunk at the end of the dinner. It was really hilarious!
He's like, ''I KNOW IM DRUNK, I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING BUT PLEASE TAKE A VIDEO OF ME.'' Hahahaha damn funny!!
and he came to me shouting, ''SHAWN 你拍的VIDEO NUMBER #1!!!l'' Haha funny shit.

Went to help out at dasmond koh & Joshua's Cookie stall @ AMKHUB. :)
I will be there to help out for the next few days, i'm not sure when dasmond and joshua will be there. But you might want to try your luck? Hehe
And do come down and support their cookies! It's really tasty and yummy! :)

Zijie, guohao, mavis, huixian came down to support as well! Hehehe or to see me.. *shy*
Ok IM REALLY DAMN SORRY TO PANGSEH YA GUYS OK. I'M REALLY WORN OUT.
I owe you guys one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I will deal break you all!!! Wait and see >;)

As for now, TIME FOR BED! :)

2011-01-14T20:14:00.003+08:00

Car Decal today at @ kallang leisure with 1003fm DJ Tian Wen. :)
We were there to give out the chinese new year goodies to the cars drivers!
Was shock to see so many cars waiting for us and there were estimated to be more than 100 cars today!

Yes it's that red shirt againn Hahaha. Was really melting hot standing under the sun with two shirts.
We still have home visiting, you might be the lucky winner! Drop us a message here!

SEEYA :)

2011-01-11T03:37:00.000+08:00

I don't know how you feel about that.
If you're sad if you're mad if you're glad.
But I do know the feeling of waiting and waiting and falling so slowly,
breaking your heart is like breaking a glass,

Please.... I don't know I don't know I don't know..
but it's killing me.

2011-01-09T02:34:00.006+08:00

Chinese New Year 1003Fm + Ghee house baking session!

Congratulations to the two lucky winners who won the contest!
Made a appearance to the winner's places in the morning togther with 1003fm DJ and a chef!

The chef actually will teach the winners how to bake really yummy cookies using Ghee Butter!
The owner of the house were all really attentive, jotting down notes about every procedures for making really yummy cookies! :)

Ok the reason why i'm dressed in SOO RED was because we're teaching them how to make chinese new year cookies/goodies! So as the spokeperson, i have to be in the chinese new year mood as well and to give away the hampers the winners! :)

Hahaha had a great day with them! AND AND.. we're having one outdoor appearance for ghee + 1003 next friday! Will update soon okay! :)

Plus, if you're interested in using Ghee butter to make your own new year goodies,
you can check out GHEE's official website! And trust me, it really makes food taste and smell so much better. :)

2011-01-08T01:41:00.007+08:00

I'm 17!!!!! Ok i sounded very excited but actually deep inside i'm afraid of getting older.
I know my height and my age and my looks doesnt match but i aint giving a shit ok.. OK!!

HAHAHAHA ok anyway, met joanne phang and leejie in the noon for lunch yesterday.
And omg they gave me such a mini and meaningful surprise! :)
Tables filled with 17 candles, and gummy bears. and a balloon.

Ok i liked what the balloon says, "Birthdays come every year... STOP COUNTING!!"
That's so me right. So me for counting down all the time. HAHAHA

But still, thank you so much gigi/joanne/leejie for the effort and time alto we only meet once a year.
HAHAAH Lets play molopoly deal again ok! Imma be deal breakers!!!!! HAHAHAAH
Thank you guys, thank you. :)

Went home and i was like all shag after drinking with jo and phang. Riza told me to stay at home for some online surprise. And guess what!
They appeared at my door steps with firecrackers and cake! Omg so touched! :)
I was like in my hairbands and super unglam home clothes. Tsk. HAHAHA
But thank you so much guys for putting in time and effort for my birthday! You guys are amazing!

Thank you riza, dalveen, jonathan, willie and rajdeep! Love you guys!
Not forgetting wenfang who can't make it! Get well soon double chin! :)

Today, wake up in the morning feeling a plastic bag.
I spend the whole night replying text messages and tweets and etc, 4am.
And i got a appearance with 1003fm at 8am!!!! Shag or what???!?! :(
But happy me woke up happily because it's my day! HAHAHAHAHA :D
Ada jie came with me today! Hohohoh thank you for doin my hair ada jie! :)

Ok. Then. the. shoot. was. over. I went to meet geraldine @ town! HEHEHEHE
Was suppose to have aston for dinner, but we're too hungry and we had it for lunch. HAA
Junhao and joey came, then Doreen, as usual never early. Hehehe
Gera baked a oreo cheese cake for me!!! Omg damn damn touched ok!
Although the cake was damn smashed up because of all the swinging hHAHA but still,
i really appreciated the home baked cheese cake! Colourful ain't they?!?!
And i swear it taste really good.... REALLY GOOD. :)

Then we headed off to katong for some random dinner, then east coast park, then kbox!
Whoooooohooo had so much fun with everyone! :)

Thank you geraldine for everything!!!! Really! And also junhao doreen joey for joinning! <3
Love you all! :) XIE XIE!

And also, thank you every single one of you who wished me on formspring/twitter/facebook/sms etc thank you so so so so much. Really. :')
Thank you guys, i really can't thank enough! THANK YOU YOU YOU YOU :)

i'm extremely exhausted.
goodnight everyone :)

2011-01-05T01:36:00.007+08:00

3 birthdays in 1 day of celebration!
Met guohao zijie einein javin jiamin huixian mavis for dinner today at town.
yes, their birthday surprise was extremely failed. HAHAHA really.

Went to Minds Cafe to play games. Dog and bone, the game i have to play everytime i visit.
HAHAHA It's really fun all of us are really screaming in the cafe funny epic shit.
“两张！！两张！！” UGLY UGLY UGLY HAHAHA really all the priceless expressions.

Then celebrated zijie's birthday, and advance for me and einein. The 8th babies! :)
HEHEHEEH with each a sperm shirttttt thanks. HAHAHA Where's my twitter shirt :(

The cake was huge and everyone was like laughing at each other's mouth.
SO BLACK HAHAHAHA EPIC.

Ain't we cool? HAHAHAHA nigga

Thank you guys for the advance celebration!!! Love you all for the effort and time and lies!
Thank you for being late for 40mins. HAHAHA And ngeow! Happy 22nd birthday!
Stay awesome/funny/cool/shuai/jaychou/whatever HAHAHA love you guys to the max :)
Seeya soon for the haunted jail house walk & prata. HAHAHA

Keh, time for bed! :)

2011-01-02T03:07:00.006+08:00

Photo credits : Diya

You can and will never understand how is it like to get back up. Everything literally said Hi, to me.
I can feel it. But as you know it comes and go and you will never know when's the next, or will there even be the next.

It's no more being in your comfort zone, time to do something, better. but you are worried eh?
You are worried that it might be another long wait or worst, no more next time.
You are satisfied with yourself but you know that you can do so much better, and all you need is chances.

You know you can do it. You know you can.

Are you up for it? Are you strong enough? S?

2011-01-01T15:17:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 2011 EVERYONEEEEEEEE! :)
Performance @ Vivo city was awesome! Nothing actually went wrong.
We actually screw up rehearsal all the time and thank god nothing went wrong! :D
Hehehehehe the crowd was not as much compared to last year, but they're really HIGH!

Thank you crew & production teammmm.
Thank you comb for making my hair and being my personal hairstylist for the day :D
Thank you Felicia & Fsv friends who came down and snap pictures of me, Phang and friends!
Thank you 6 beautiful babes dancers, you guys are awesome!
Thank you to everyone who wrote in my twitter/facebook/sms/formspring. It's all flooded.
HAHAHAA thanks guys! THANKS THANKS THANKS.

I have 500+ pictures to blog about, (excluding pictures from dancers and gigi tsk). I don't know where should i start. HAHAHAA
Maybe you would wanna check out my page for all the pictures? :)

Once again, happy new year! :)

2010-12-30T23:49:00.003+08:00

I wanted to write this post on the 31st but because of the countdown show, i'm afraid i won't have the time to write a proper post so i shall write them now. :)

It does feels like yesterday that i wrote the 2009 post.
I'm not really into "2011 will be a better year!" anymore.
I used to believe that the next year will be better, but now, i come to realized that our actions and thinking determine what the coming year would be.
Yes, i do hope that it will be better. But most importantly, i will have do my part to make it even better.

2010 came and go like the train. It literally just zoom past me. I don't know why or just me, i think this is one of the fastest year ever!
Maybe because I'm so packed with O's, schools and meet ups. But still i had a really great and fun year with so many awesome family and friends around me! Love ya'll!
Thank you so much for this amazing year, especially my family for being there all the time!
Friends/CSS/Mediacorp peeps/schoolmates, thank you all all all, i believe you guys know who you are!
Thank you those who've help me this year, especially people like phang, liew, lk. Thanks, really. :)
And not forgetting my readers and people who're still supporting me till today and still believing in me. I know i haven't been working very hard on my career. But i won't let ya'll down.
Thank you readers/people on my page/twitter/formspring etc. Thank you all :)

This year wouldn't have been so memorable, without you guys.
Next chapter again! I'm looking forward! Lets all welcome 2011 with the brightest smile! :)

p/s :

you ready?
31st December, 11pm, channel8, countdown 2011, vivo city LIVE.

2010-12-29T03:28:00.002+08:00

3 days to 2011. 3 days to 2011.
Do something meaningful in this 3 days if you've yet to do so. :)
dance dance dance. Bye :)

2010-12-26T21:39:00.011+08:00

Christmas Eve, spent it with phang in the night. Touring around vivo really aimlessly.
We literally toured around, round and round waiting for 12am.
And we zoomed home immediately after 12!! HAHAHA really stupid.

Christmas Day! :)
Went over to dasmond's house to partehhhh and i'm the earliest kido.
6 boxes of pizza, 36 slices. hehehehe then finally everyone arriveddd! like boomz.
Wii-ed like what we did 2 years ago. It was really awesome! Me and Jo were the winners for team!
and i'm ranked last for a million times playing solo damn it. (stupid huixian) haha

Then we started to look for movies online, wrong turn 3. Eggciting.
Chips Chips Chips Chips Chips Chips Chips Chips Chips Chips Chips. EAT EAT.

Went to mac to slack for another.... 5 hours! We literally sat there and chitchat.
With huixian, raozijie, guohao and mavis. we totally chat everything under the sun hehe!
Then we started to talk about the good old days, css days. omgggggg.
BABY HUIXIAN, BABY NGEOW, BABY HE, BABY MUFFIN with the reddest face.
Really awesome. And now we have a really cool plans ahead! Can't wait! :)

Thank you so much dasmond for the pizzas/supper/chips/time/everything! :)
Okay awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xmas with the dudes.
Next stop, countdown @ vivo city! I'M ALL SO EXCITED. VERY. :)

2010-12-24T17:51:00.006+08:00

房间版's Mini performance @ Crazy world.
Went to support 房间版(Guohao Zijie and Einein) with mavis and jiamin! :D
Was kinda early so we went to had dinner at outrum and omg i found another place that sells
really yummy food omg omg omg. hahahaha i have new cravings now hehe.
tried KOI, my virgin koi, and i don't know why i don't really like it! ewwwww.
maybe it's because of the comments i heard that allows me to have high expections. oh welll..

anyway 房间版! 房间版! They're really awesome! their covers are really awesome!
It's been quite awhile since i listen to chinese song, they kinda refresh my mind,
and i'm addicted to their covers! bravo thumbs up to 房间版! :D

bought a xmas gift for damond, finally finally finally. then supper with everyone! :D
maxwell-ed! awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D

KEWEI :)

It's christmas eve ! It's christmas eve ! It's christmas eve ! It's christmas eve ! It's christmas eve !
So how are you spending yours? I'm.. rotting.. at... home... editing... videos.... for... 房间版!!
Stay tuned ya?!?! Merry Xmas eve! :D

P/S : Check out 房间版's youtube covers HERE.

2010-12-22T22:48:00.005+08:00

XMAS SHOPPING TODAY!!!!!!! :D
Riza wanted to meet me at 7am to shop! MAD. Obviously we didn't.
We set the timing at 10am, in the end the both of us slept till 12!!! Tsk.
Dalveen joined us after working and boomz we spent our asset on toys. hehehe

I bought like 6 toys in total for my little cousins! Hahaha had a difficult time deciding on what to buy.
And i've yet to buy anything for gift exchange at das's place and with gera and junhao. Double TSK.
Sent the xmas gifts to my cousin'ss door steps and they were so delighted. Aww..

Eleena, Phoebe, Ezekiel TOK. :)

Okay i smell Christmas. Do you? :)

2010-12-21T19:33:00.003+08:00

This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory, No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love, Like it's forever.
To live the rest of our life, But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted and I'm wastin' every day

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on.

(Just feel like posting some lyrics since everyone's doing it LOL)

2010-12-20T00:12:00.004+08:00

HOW'S MY NEW HAIR!!??!!

Ok there isn't much difference but yes, i'm totally aware that the color is damn BENGZ.
But what to do?! I didn't chose that color!!!!!!! Tsk Tsk. So now i have to wait for it to grow before i can trim the tail behind.
But i kinda love the color now. *grin*

And yes... 5 more days to Christmas!! It's gonna be a gathering at dasmond's place.
And 11 more days to countdown performance at Vivo City! I'm excited, really!
It's been 2 years since i last came up on stage to sing fer ya'll!
And and... *counts* ... i'm turing 17 in 19 days time! OMGOSHHZ. One more year to club officially i can't wait ballllllllllls.

Ok as for those who're still asking about the vivo city tickets, i really have no more tickets to spare because i've already given out to the winner and my friends. Sorry! :(

P/S : For those who've been asking me about comb in my fs, he's working at Icon @ Wisma. It's located in the basement, inside Isetan. Just walk in and say HELLO COMB HEHE. He's charging $36 (or 38) boys for haircut, $41 for females. You might want to consider looking for him! He's really friendly and nice. :)

and lastly....

OK NOTHING MORE. BYE! :)

2010-12-17T23:16:00.001+08:00

ngeow.

2010-12-13T18:29:00.004+08:00

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OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! I'm giving away a pair of tickets!
Simply tell us why you wish to attend the countdown party in less than 50words,
or a sentence will do, and mail us @ shawnbravo@live.com!
We will notify the winner on saturday! All the best!

Yes i'm performing for this years countdown 2011 @ Vivo City.
31st December, 11pm, Channel 8, Live.

As for those who have been coming to my formspring asking me questions about the tickets,
I got the information from BAGUATV and there are still tickets available!
So if you have no plans on that night, so why not come and party with you and your friends!

Latest: VivoCity has reverted on the ticket redemption mechanics: Shoppers who spend a minimum of $150 at VivoCity from 20 to 31 December 2010 can redeem for a pair of tickets to join in the celebration. Redemptions are limited to a maximum of 1 pair of tickets per shopper per day, for the first 500 shoppers on a first-come, first-served basis.

Performers for the night : Fann Wong, Tay Ping Hui, Dai Yang Tian, Zhou Ying, Paige Chua, Zhang Zheng Huan, 插班生’s Diya & Carrie, Campus SuperStars Shawn Tok, AiJia & Jarod Lee, Project SuperStars Daren Tan, Kelvin Soon, Sugianto & Jeremy Chan, SuperBand 迷路兵 & 大风吹, Lee Teng, Ben Yeo, the always fantastic Pat Mok, Michelle Tay, Priscilla Chan, Tracy Lee, Koh Yah Hwee, Star Search newly signed Finalists…etc. The Channel 8 Countdown Show will be hosted by Quan Yi Fong and Dasmond Koh. (From BAGUATV)

SEEYA DERE :)

2010-12-12T22:45:00.005+08:00

Doing so much is equivalent to doing nothing.
Zero multiply by itself, adding itself, subtracting itself, diving by itself.
All Zero.

全都是零。。

2010-12-12T01:02:00.007+08:00

I never thought this day would arrive nor will be writing this post.
When i start to think about stuff, i realize that i'm in a pretty dark place.
I'm tired of making excuses for myself, consoling myself by pretending it's all okay.
You think it doesn't hurt when you think of all the people in the world,
but you don't even look at me. Sometimes i think we might be two people. Maybe we all are.

If i shout or yell, all i meant was is to just talk.
Some people on this planet just wants to be nice.
Someone i sing with, work with, laugh with, smile at, walk with, look at, know or not.
Never feel like you're alone. I might not be able to help everyone, but i can love everyone.
Sometimes I tried and i tried really really hard. But it just comes to no avail.
I'm still trying and learning. But, will you let me in?

I did my part of being your friend.
I did my part to help, and make more memorable days in all these years.
Did you appreciate? Did you bother? Are we your priorities?
After all, priorities comes first and this is obvious that we are not your priority.
I wonder what's in your mind. I might have grass growing on my mind sometimes,
but at least i know what i'm doing. How to make people feel less out. But you?

Are we all really remember by a single lousy moment?
Remember, i didn't walk away. You did. So go. just walk.

2010-12-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

It sometimes feels like a strange movie, you know,
it's all so weird that sometimes I wonder if it is really happening. -Eminem

2010-11-29T07:47:00.003+08:00

Does it matter that I wanted it so bad?
Did i fight hard enough? Did I do enough? Did I believe in myself enough?
All I have is where I am now, and where I’m going to be.
All i have to do is hear and obey. Right?

Via Deekhoo.